Sometimes when the house smells like pancakes, it’s not pancakes at all.
Sometimes when life seems to throw flaming lemons at you instead of kindly hand them to you, you feel like you’re being engulfed in flames. But, enough of these poorly written euphemisms.
So, what do you do when life throws approximately 5 curve balls at you? You sit and shake and cry a little, and you listen to the Indians win World Series game 1. What do you do when separation anxiety starts to kick in, and everything back “home” seems to be going wrong? What do you do when you can’t do anything?
Right now, I’m not really sure. I’m sitting back in a time zone 6 hours ahead of my friends, over 4,000 miles away- just waiting and watching things unfold. Sometimes, you can’t be there to fix everything. But if I were there, how much could I really do? There’s really a reason for everything. Right?
Well, I’d feel much more content if I’d hear from my best friend. He crashed his car into a lake yesterday. The news said he was okay. I’m sure he’s okay. Of course he’s okay. But it just sucks, not being there for him. Not knowing. I wish I could be there to comfort Kat when she needs it. I realize we lived 4 hours apart when I was there, but there’s a sense of comfort knowing we’re in the same state.
Yesterday was interesting. Yesterday was weird. However, I am very much looking forward to tomorrow. What is tomorrow, you ask? Well, one of my friends that I met through Civil Air Patrol- at my basic encampment, is studying in Berlin. Berlin just so happens to be about 6 hours from here. And you know, as people both citizens of Ohio, we’d only find it reasonable to hang out in Europe. So that’s really cool- and I’m excited. We’re going to show him all around North Netherlands, including climbing a tower and taking a boat tour of the canals and city. Yay positive things!
But, I won’t feel okay until I here from Ky. He… *sigh*. I also hope his Euphonium is okay. I realized after texting him last night that his phone is likely at the bottom of the lake… or at least very very wet… So yeah. It’s just… I’m likely overreacting. But not being there, not being able to know what’s going on.., It really starts to take a toll on you after a while. Especially this.
But, it’ll all be okay. Right?
Maybe the Indians will win the World Series. That’ll be nice. It just really sucks not being there to watch it or witness it. But, shout-out to Alex for being a fantastic friend and figuring out how to get the radio broadcast of the game working.
Loneliness is my least favorite thing about life. The thing that I’m most worried about is just being alone without anybody to care for or someone who will care for me.
There are so many unanswered questions in my mind, and so much is going on. It’ll all work out. Right? I sure hope so.
Stay strong, guys.